The Double Ration
Chapter 9 · 2,466 words
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There was nothing special about the Tuesday. No premonition, no ominous weather, no sign from any god. Just a regular evening in the east wing — you at your desk, him on the bench, the fire crackling low, the rain finally down to a drizzle after two months of near-constant downpour.
You'd been having a good week. The best since you'd arrived. The cataloging was ahead of schedule. Thaddeus had given you access to the restricted pre-Netherese collection. You'd found three more references to diluted Genasi bloodlines, each one confirming what you'd already suspected — that your power was hereditary, natural, and non-magical in the arcane sense. It wasn't spellcasting. It was biology. Your blood carried a restoration property that functioned independently of any spell or ritual, powered by your own life force, replenished by rest and nutrition.
You were beginning to understand it. To map its limits. One ounce of extracted blood per night was enough to keep his symptoms at bay without draining your reservoir below functional levels. The daily draw left you slightly tired — a heaviness behind the eyes, a tendency to fall asleep over the cataloging — but nothing dangerous. Sustainable.
Or so you'd calculated.
"Double ration tonight," Astarion said.
You looked up from the codex you were reading. He was sitting on the bench with a book open on his knee, but he wasn't reading it. He was looking at you. His eyes had that particular quality — still and focused, the surface calm hiding something hungrier underneath — that you'd learned to watch for.
"No."
"I've been good. I've sat on this bench every night for two months. I haven't crossed the line. I haven't complained about the tea. I haven't rearranged your scrolls." He closed the book. "One extra ounce. That's all I'm asking."
"The dosage is calculated based on your metabolic needs and my regeneration rate. Doubling it would—"
"Would what? Make me feel warm for two hours instead of one?" He stood up. He didn't cross the line, but he stood close to it, his body taut with something he was working hard to contain. "Do you know what one ounce feels like? It's like being given a single breath of air when you're drowning. It's enough to keep you alive. It's not enough to stop the drowning."
"Sit down."
"I'm asking nicely. For once in my miserable existence, I am asking nicely." His voice had dropped. The theatrical lilt was gone. What was left was raw and stripped. "Please. Just tonight."
You looked at him. You looked at the lancet on your desk, and the ceramic cup, and the neat row of notes where you'd been tracking his dosage against your own energy levels.
One extra ounce. Your reservoir could handle it. Probably. You'd been sleeping well, eating regularly. Your reserves were higher than they'd been in months. One extra ounce wouldn't drain you below functional. It would just mean a harder morning. Extra fatigue. Nothing you hadn't dealt with before.
You picked up the lancet.
"One time," you said. "This is not a precedent."
"Understood."
You drew two ounces instead of one. The second prick stung more — your vein was still tender from the first. You filled the cup and set it on the edge of the desk.
He picked it up. He drank.
The effect was immediate and visible. His pupils blew wide. The flush didn't creep this time — it flooded, rushing up his neck and across his face like a tide. He set the cup down hard enough to crack the ceramic. His hand gripped the edge of the desk — across the six-foot line, his fingers white-knuckled on the wood.
"Oh," he breathed. His head dropped forward. His whole body was shaking, but not from cold. From the force of the magic hitting his system at twice the concentration he'd been calibrated to. The blue veins flickered under the skin of his throat, faint but visible in the candlelight. "Oh, that's — that's —"
Something happened that you didn't see.
Miles away, in the basement of a palace in Baldur's Gate, a thread of infernal magic — thin, ancient, nearly invisible — vibrated. The blood-tether that connected Astarion to his master quivered like a struck wire. It had been dormant for months, the low hum of a spawn going about his unremarkable business barely registering on the web. But the double dose of restoration magic had sent a spike through his system — a flare of life-force, warmth, and power that lit up the tether like a signal fire.
In his study, Cazador Szarr looked up from his ledger.
You felt the change before you understood it.
Astarion went rigid. The pleasured flush drained from his face, replaced by something white and stricken. His hand flew to his temple, his fingers pressing hard against his skull, and a sound came out of him — thin, high, strangled — that you'd never heard from any living or undead creature.
"He felt it," Astarion gasped. His eyes were wild, the pupils contracting to pinpoints. "The tether. He felt the — he knows I'm —" He stumbled backward, nearly falling over the bench. "I need to leave. Now. Right now."
"Who?" You were on your feet, your healer's instincts overriding everything else. "Who felt what?"
But he was already moving. He knocked the bench aside, crossed the six-foot line without seeming to notice, and seized your hands. His grip was iron. His face was inches from yours.
"You need to run," he said. His voice was shaking. Not with theatrical flair. With terror. "He has a tether. A blood-bond. He can feel what I feel. If I feel — if your magic makes me feel too much, he'll trace it. He'll trace it to me, and then he'll trace it to you."
"Who is he?"
The name came out of Astarion's mouth like something rotten.
"Cazador."
The word meant nothing to you. But the way his face looked when he said it — the way the mask didn't just slip but shattered, revealing something underneath that was very old and very small and very afraid — told you everything.
"My master," he whispered. "My owner. The one who made me what I am. He has — he keeps us on leashes. All of us. The spawn. We can't — I can't —"
He let go of your hands. He was backing toward the door, his movements jerky and uncoordinated, nothing like the liquid grace of the alleys.
"Run," he said again. "Different city. Different name. Don't stay here. If he sends the others —"
"Stop." Your voice cut through his panic like a scalpel. The flat, clinical tone you used when a patient was spiraling. "Breathe. Tell me what a blood-tether is and how it works."
"There's no time —"
"Make time." You stepped toward him. "If I need to run, I need to know what I'm running from. Sit down. Talk."
He didn't sit. But he stopped moving. He stood in the doorway, one hand on the frame, rain blowing in behind him, and told you.
He told you about Cazador. About the crypts, the rituals, the leash of infernal magic that let the master feel what the spawn felt. He told you about the other spawn — Leon, Petras, Violet, Aurelia, Dalyria, Yousen — and the way Cazador used them as hunting dogs, tracking by tether-vibration, arriving at the source before the prey knew they'd been found.
He told you in short, broken sentences. No theater. No pet names. The voice of someone recounting facts about a disaster that had happened to them a long time ago and never stopped happening.
When he was done, you stood in the east wing of the Scribes' Guild in Oakwater, listening to the rain, and did the calculation.
Your magic, in a controlled dose, was below the tether's detection threshold. One ounce. Background noise. The double dose had been different — a spike, a flare, enough to register.
Which meant the protocol worked. But the margin for error was gone.
Which meant staying here, in the only place you'd felt safe in months, was no longer an option. Not because of him. Because Cazador now knew that something interesting was happening to his spawn, and a master who kept his creatures on leashes was exactly the kind of predator who would come looking for the reason.
You stood at the window and let the loss arrive.
The archive. The east wing with its ten thousand manuscripts and its cedar smell and the desk she had claimed with the same quiet authority she'd claimed the clinic. The restricted pre-Netherese collection, half-cataloged, the index cards still in their box with notes in her handwriting. The garden where the jasmine grew wild and the comfrey patch she'd planted beside the fountain had just begun to establish roots.
Thaddeus. The old elf who had seen through her forged letter and hired her anyway. Who had called her "child" and meant it as a compliment, not a diminishment. Who had noticed an extra cup and understood, with four centuries of observation, that the woman he'd taken in was building something fragile in his east wing and that fragile things needed protecting.
The routine. The rhythm that had formed around her like a shell — wake, catalog, research, sleep, repeat. The safety of a pattern that asked nothing but attention and returned, in exchange, the slow accumulation of understanding. She had been learning what she was. She had been mapping the limits of her blood, her magic, her Genasi inheritance. She had been becoming, by careful increments, a person who understood herself.
That was gone now. Taken, the way everything in this story had been taken — not by violence but by proximity, by the gravitational pull of a creature whose needs exceeded the capacity of any system built to contain them.
She didn't blame him. That was the exhausting part. She understood the mechanism too well to assign blame. He hadn't asked for the tether. He hadn't chosen to be a vessel for someone else's hunger. He had asked for a second ounce because the pain of one was unbearable, and she had given it because refusing felt like cruelty, and now both of them were paying for the mercy.
You looked at Astarion. He was watching you with an expression that mixed guilt and desperation in proportions you recognized from the worst kind of patients — the ones who knew they'd caused their own relapse.
"You should hate me," he said.
"I don't have time to hate you." You walked to your desk. You opened the drawer. You took out your satchel and started packing — the Genasi journal, your notes, the lancet kit, the remaining herbs. "I need to be gone before dawn."
"Where will you go?"
"South. There's a river town three days' walk. Big enough to disappear in." You paused, your hands full of dried chamomile. "Small enough that a stranger might find work as a healer without questions."
"I'll lead them away. The spawn. If he sends them, I'll —"
"You'll do what he tells you to do, because that's how the tether works." You said it without cruelty. Without comfort. A clinical statement of fact. "You can't protect me from him. You can barely protect yourself."
The silence that followed was the worst one yet. Not the charged silence of the alleys, or the held-breath silence of the forest. The exhausted silence of two people who had run out of ways to pretend the situation was manageable.
You finished packing. You slung the satchel over your shoulder. You walked to the door.
"The tea set is in the cupboard," you said. "The chicory is on the second shelf. There's enough for a week."
"You're leaving me tea instructions."
"I'm leaving you options. You can stay here until the heat dies down, or you can go back to the city. Either way, the one-ounce protocol is in my notes on the desk. If you find another healer —"
"There is no other healer." His voice cracked. "There is no other you."
You looked at him. Wet, wretched, leaning in the doorway of the only sanctuary you'd managed to build.
You wanted to say something kind. Something that would ease the guilt on his face, close the wound he'd opened by asking for more than the protocol allowed.
Instead, you said: "I know."
Then you walked out into the rain.
You were three steps into the garden when Thaddeus appeared from the shadows.
He was wearing his heavy cloak, the one he kept for trips to the village. His silver hair was tucked under the hood. In his hands, he held a leather pouch that clinked softly.
"I heard," he said simply.
You stopped.
"All of it?"
"Enough." He pressed the pouch into your hands. Gold. Heavy. More than you'd earned in your three months at the Guild. "The southern road is safest this time of year. There's a bookshop in Greenstone that owes me a favor. Ask for the owner and tell them Thaddeus sent you."
Your throat tightened. "Master Thaddeus —"
"Go, child." His voice was warm and firm and left no room for argument. He reached out and touched your cheek, briefly, with the same gentleness he used for cracked manuscript bindings. "May the light guide your hands, wherever they must heal next."
You held the gold. You looked at the old elf standing in the rain, his sharp eyes soft for once, his centuries of careful observation narrowed to a single act of uncomplicated kindness.
"The ward," you said. "The cloaking ward. If his trackers come—"
"I cast it three weeks ago." Thaddeus adjusted his hood against the rain. "The moment I noticed the extra cup, I began preparations. An old elf does not live four centuries without learning to anticipate departures." He reached into his cloak and produced a small, leather-bound key. "This is the spare to the east wing. You've earned it. Take it as proof of employment, should you need references — real ones, this time."
You took the key. It was warm from his body heat.
"I'm not coming back," you said.
"I know." He folded his hands. "I knew the morning you arrived with your forged letter and your careful hands that you were a woman who would leave. Leavers always come to the archive — it is a way station, not a destination. You were never going to stay." He paused. "But you improved the garden, and for that, I am grateful."
"Thank you," you said.
He nodded.
You turned south, into the dark. The rain swallowed you within ten steps. Behind you, the Scribes' Guild of Oakwater glowed faintly through the trees, warm and lit, already receding into the past.
You didn't look back.
You never looked back.
End of Part Two